Up and down, round and round....here we go again. There are those things that in life seem to never change. I don't understand it sometimes. Why is it that when we pray so fervently for God to intervene in the lives of those we love that we still don't see that change happen? We plant the seeds, water the seeds, pull the weeds, and continue doing what we know we should do, but yet, it seems like those prayers are not answered.
Most of you know, without my going too detailed, that one of my family members has major struggles in life. In respect of those closest to him, I will not mention the name, but I will tell you he is dearly loved. Everything that could be done to help him, has been done, yet he continues to choose the path that leads him in to trouble. I have watched those who care the most do everything in their power to help him. I know they have prayed daily for God's intervention as have I, but we have yet to see His divine hand intervene. How long oh Lord???? How long does his family have to ride this never ending ride of ups and downs? When can the circle of events stop so that we can rest? Can you hear our pleads? Are you listening? Are you there? Why has he not been saved from this pit he is in? He is loved. He is wanted. He is precious to so many, so why can't he see it? Why can't he stop this cycle of pain that we, his family, go through? That he goes through.....
As I learned tonight again of his misadventures that have led him in to a deeper level of the pit, my heart aches for him, but for his loved ones even more. They have given so much. They have cried so many tears. They have sought God's guidance and His people for help. They have all but given up. When all else has failed, they have continued to love.
I have a friend that would tell you that he is very lucky. She has longed for parents that would accept her with all the mistakes she has made. She has pleaded for their unconditional love and tried to make them see she is trying to do her best, yet they don't even acknowledge her existence any longer. And then here is my family member, who has been given all the unconditional love and forgiveness imaginable and he just seems to stomp on it like it is worthless.
And so the ride continues....some days up, some days down, but no matter what we are still going round and round in this vicious circle of destruction, abuse, and sadness. I pray we can get off this ride before it is really too late for any of us to feel anything but pain.
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Denise,
Ny heart aches for you as I read this. All I can say is that God does have a plan and it will come to be in His timing. We don't understand these things that go on in our lives but we must trust that God does and He is listening. I pray peace for you in this struggle.
Love you, Connie
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