I thought it might be time to talk about how this blog came about. It is one of those "stepping out on faith" things that I have been challenged to do. Most of you who have been reading for a while know how hard it is for me to make this blog open to the public. I have always been very selective in who I let in and how close. Where that trait came from, I'm not so sure, but it is one I have perfected. However, after much prompting, I have opened this part of me up to others.
I have often said I would NEVER do this and allow "strangers" to read about my thoughts and struggles. You know, I guess I learned that you just kept some things to yourself and didn't share your struggles with others. Then, after a time of learning about having a deeper relationship with God, the sudden urge started for me to write. I started writing encouragements to several friends involved in a ministry in Dallas. I also started sharing what God was doing in my life and showing me each day. Much of this has dealt with just my experiences as a mother and wife, but some has dealt with other life experiences. This writing came from a place unknown to me. I had never thought of being a writer nor had I ever thought of sharing, but encouraging others in emails and sharing Bible verses seemed natural. Eventually, several friends PUSHED rather hard for me to do something more with my writing. I need to let you know that I do not even still feel that I can take much credit for some of my writing. There are times that I feel such an urge to write that the only way I can sleep is to write what is bouncing around in my head.
So, this blog became my outlet. I invited those closest to me....those I thought would not judge me....to see how my mind works and what my journey with God has been like. But then, I was encouraged again to be open and real and let what I have experienced and what I am learning be shared with others. And so.....I opened this up!
I need to let you all know that this scares me to death. I have a live feed that tells me what cities have logged in to read, but not who those people are. I have noticed so much more activity on this blog that I am overwhelmed. I am also a bit nervous. Not that I will offend, but that I have been too open....too real....too transparent. That is a fear that inhibits my writing at times. I don't want that to happen. I want this to continue to be an open place for me to write and for whatever I feel God is leading me to say to be said. I don't ever want to not be real.
So here it is.....me....somewhat filtered, but most of the time, just the real me. If you ever feel led to leave a comment, please do. I would love to know who is visiting and reading. It might ease some of my fear or it may spur me on. Whatever your choice, please know that you are part of the journey I am on. Hang on, this ride is bumpy at times. I ask one thing, remember that this is my life and where God is leading me. It truly is not about anyone but me and what I am processing at the time. I pray that if my words touch a nerve or help you, that you know they are the product of God's leading and changing me daily.
Welcome to my journey......
1 comment:
Well Denise you know I read your blog regularly and am always so glad to see you post something new! I believe God calls us to be extra ordinary, to put away our fears and step out so that he can use us for his glory. That means being vulnerable in today's world. When others see your struggles and how you handle them it gives them hope and insight. It keeps them from feeling alone and it exposes the lies that Satan throws at us all. You will never know the lives that will be touched and yes changed because you are giving God the reigns in your life. I believe He has given you the gift of writing and you are using it for Him with your blog. Thank you so much:)
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