I have been horrible about keeping up with my writing lately. Even those simple rantings of mine have failed to make it on here. Life has just been a whirlwind since school started.
I do feel that I am to start writing again. I know I have said that before and for those who read this, you know it only comes when I feel inspired or prompted to write. It does not come easy for me to put what I think or feel out there for others to read. My very private side does not like others knowing so much about me! Those of you who are here with me are among a very select and lucky (if you want to call it luck) few.
So let's recap the last several months.....school....school.....school....and school. Honestly I can say it has consumed my life. Every once of my brain power and energy have been taken over by school. To say our year started off with a bang is quite true! The last I wrote we had just seen the accidentally overdose of one of our 8th graders. Since that time we have had a high school senior die tragically in a car accident, our principal quit/retired suddenly, one of my students tried to hang himself on PURPOSE during recess from the swings, another one of my students is now in a psychiatric hospital for make a "hit" list and detailing how he would kill the people on his list, another student served time in our BIC center for also making a list of how to kill a specific boy in several different ways, our assistant superintendent resigned due to her brain cancer spreading, one of my best friends had a scare with melanoma, my student with a form of autism continues to test my skills as a teacher, one of my students is being abused by her older sister and it happen today at school too, plus I have one parent who is set on making this year our worst year ever. Our school has had several extreme events lately with teachers and students being in the center of the drama. It has been INSANE! I'm lucky to still be in my right mind!
On a happier note.....my grandbaby is growing by leaps and bounds! Yes, I said GRANDBABY!!! Ashton is expecting in May. I am so excited. I even got to see my little sweetpea/doodlebug in a sonogram last month. He/she was precious and had hiccups the whole time we were looking at him/her. Ashton has been sick for 4 months now and is longing for the day she feels better. I'm sure Todd is longing for that day too!
Tara continues to do well in college! She has also had a rough start to this year. Her summer was, let's say, less than wonderful. But I can say she is a little bit wiser and a whole lot stronger because of it.
Chelsea is loving jr. high school. Unbelievable that she is in 7th grade!!! She had her first tennis match last night and we enjoyed watching her and our niece play a doubles match.
Life is going.....and going.....and going..... It seems to never slow down long enough for us to enjoy much of it. Mike works too hard and too much. School wears me out. Chelsea is even tired enough that she doesn't want to do much at night. We are just meeting ourselves coming and going. I really did think life would slow down with just one baby girl at home....boy was I wrong!
We also have been involved in another ministry opportunity. Steppingstones kicks off officially in February and January will be a month of rehearsals! It is exciting and scary at the same time. I'm not sure how God wants me to serve in this ministry but I am praying He shows me his plan. So far, I am working on the newsletter for the ministry and writing a little for it.
So, I think that is my life....at the moment. I'm sure I have forgotten something....but right now I'm too tired to think. I will say that a thought has been taking up residence in my brain and is waiting for me to write it somewhere.....not sure what it will look like. I'm sure I will eventually get it down...my thoughts are these so far....here's your sneak peak in to what I am/will be writing about:
Nothing special?
When did I quit believing I was special?
Who I am not....Not the cheerleader....Not the top student....Not the prettiest.....Not the smartest....Not the most prized....Not...Not....Not....
As you can see....this one will not be easy. I know I have to write it, but the words have just not come yet. I thought maybe tonight I would be able to get started on putting my ideas down in written form, but so far I haven't been able to. I guess just being able to tell you all about the trials and struggles of the last couple of months is enough for today.
So, yes, I am still here and still writing just not publishing very much.....bear with me....It will get better eventually....I know it has to!
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